two nights ago, i dreamed i was being hunted by the joker as played by heath ledger in “the dark knight.” he was trying to kill me, so my mom bought me a gun. i was actually a really good shot–i even magically knew how to use the gun the first time i touched it–but i couldn’t kill him, which i suppose was what made the dream so scary. anyway, for some reason my mom and i went to hide out in a store in mexico. my ballroom teacher, victoria, was the store owner. and then the joker found us there and attacked me, and it was like a scene from “crouching tiger, hidden dragon” or something crossed with a scene from “criminal minds.” anyway, i finally killed him. it was horrible. i woke up still thinking i should get a gun, just in case. i must have still been half asleep because it seemed like a great idea at the time.

and then last night, i dreamed i was at my high school, but it was like the whole world or something was contained in the school. anyway, sarah and i were witches, and we were trying to find a prophecy for the end of the world so we could stop it. and we were in the bathroom which was actually a giant bathtub with toilets along the edge of it, and one of the black guys that’s part of the school’s security team was there with us, and we were singing this song–i can’t remember what it was–trying to find the prophecy. i kept throwing up and it was really disgusting, and then the song ended and the world was collapsing and we still hadn’t found the prophecy. and i was like “we need to sing ‘be ye lamps unto yourselves’! that will get us the prophecy!” and then i woke up.

you see me, you don’t see us

can’t look past what is nearest

but i know

i can sense the end

and when we are engulfed

when the storm snatches us up

rag dolls in an apocalyptic fire storm

i will be ready

i will embrace my fate alone

with eyes wide open

arms extended in gratitude

the chaos will erase our pain

i will be blissfully unaware, swallowed by the dark

and you will be a faded memory.